Final Act

Been a while since I posted. More than a month. For some reason, I expected this whole affair to take longer, but it ended a breath. After so many choices, so many paths, so many losses, I arrived at my destination. It was the not the destination I expected, or wanted, particularly. But it was a destination nonetheless, and my arrival was better than the journey.

Several liars, a few truth bearers in disguise, and some who understood much and knew little, helped me accomplish this. In truth, it was never meant to be done. How many people go missing every day, and do not even make it on the local news? The answer is many. Manipulation, control, and corruption are rife in this world.

I regret many of my decisions, but wrong decisions and regretful decisions are two different things. Many of the choices I made were manipulated, and the rest were still probably not my own. I was helped by several people, but how many of them were right? How many knew the truth? I will never know now, but I did not want to know then. I trusted, was willing for most things, in order to end this path I was placed on.

In the end I was right. I should never have started. I now have ended this for the good of everyone. If you are reading this, remember, never take the path. It goes downhill all the way, but stops quite suddenly. Before you are ready.

I did what I had to.

And will do it again.

Freedom and Lies

Looking through some of Matthias' old footage, I'm noticing a lot of it looks fake. But why would he fake it? I questioned him a while ago, with Grey by my side. He just said that 'he was a fool, wanting a piece of the action'. I think that means that he was a faker. What bridged the gap?

He also claimed a while back that Vision was actually not an alternate personality, but a Proxy that had been manipulating him, and asked us to free him. A claim immediately crushed by a fact mention by a dear friend of Grey's. This friend claims that Vision is merely Matthias' alias, and all those other claims were merely attempts to lower our guard.

Choices is free, but he has been changed. He claims to no longer be in bondage to the Guardian, and 'That a mind such as his should not be given free reign'. I am glad of his freedom, but do not know what to expect.

I have been given a choice. Do I keep fighting, or do I offer to stay away from this and leave it forever? I do not know whether either is possible, but I do not know what to choose. My mind is breaking.

Endless

Time is going on. Been ages since I posted last on this site. Nearly forgot about it to. Nothing has been happening, other than occasional chats with Grey Cross. The voice in my head is silent, and I don't know if I want something to happen or not. Grey says this silence is to break me, and if so, I think it's working. I'm on the edge, and I'm afraid of what will come next.

Of how this will end.

Faceless

That face I mentioned earlier is still appearing in my dreams. I swear I can see it when I am awake as well. I cannot describe it, because for some reason I forget what it looks like until I see it again. It's definitely not the Host or Matthias, because I know what they look like. I don't know if it has a body or not, it's just...the face stands out.

Things like this are enough to drive a person insane, which raises the question: Why am I not insane? Or am I insane already? Just a few more mysteries to add to my list.

Another person contacted me. She did not exactly explain her intentions, she just told of her experiences. She wants answers, I think, but, like me, we don't know the exact questions...

I do hope she doesn't become involved. The last thing I need is a bit more guilt in my life.

Doesn't anyone have answers?

Not Lies but Stupidity

Grey was making clear sense. I was not understanding it. I will not say what I was confused about, that is between us. It seems I have been the error in a lot of things, now that I look back. I need to focus and clear my thoughts.

I got nowhere with my lead. Matthias obviously intended it to be a joke. As if any of this is funny.

I am the problem.

Silence

Nothing has been happening. I will wait until I actually can learn something. I'm tired of speaking and learning nothing. Last time I tried to get some info I was nearly killed. In fact, I think Choices may have been killed, or taken. I would like to speak with someone who has answers. Choices refused to answer, Grey Cross knows little, Vision/Matthias is being sadistic, the Host is also enjoying my ignorance, and lets not forget the fact that the Slender Man, the Guardian, and any other aspects of the Tall One are ignoring me.

Someone said he wants to speak to me. His name is the Benefactor, also referred to as Johnson. I doubt his authenticity, due to the fact that he speaks with fakers, but he is basically the only lead I have left. Even Grey is being contradictory, saying something then revealing that someone was lying or something like that. My mind is in tatters, although this Prophet claims that it is strong.

Fool. Do you not reΛlɪze thΛt your mɪnd ɪs your most powerful tool? Do you not know thΛt ɪ would normally be drΛggɪng you over to my sɪde, but you Λre doɪng the opposɪte to me?

What good is tool if you don't know what or how to fix? What good is a weapon if you don't know how to fight? I have another lead though, one no one knows anything about. Not even this fragment inside my head. And yes, he may have started off as separate mind, but, like he said, I am dragging him into mine.

As for the lead, it was a message left to me by Matthias. I will follow it and see where it gets me.

Consequences

We met. We spoke. I nearly was killed. I had no idea that the Host was a resourceful as the Tall One. And Matthias tried to interrupt with a knife. I didn't get much anywhere. It's only thanks to Choices that I made it out there alive. He managed to get away with me before I was attacked.

I only learnt one thing: That Grey Cross is being used as a tool. A while ago, I was shot at, and we both thought it was Grey. Or, to be more accurate, we hoped not, but suspected it. Now I know that Grey is being puppeted by someone. By a powerful being. I didn't learn anything else of interest, thanks to their backstabbing tendencies.

If you read this Grey, I still trust you. I'm not willing to lose a comfort just because liars claim that you are under someone's control. Besides, I been through much worse ordeals than this. It's not as if it can get a lot worse...

Broadcast

The Host, Matthias, or whatever else is intent on ruining my life, come meet me today. I need to speak with you about mistakes everyone has made. Hopefully I can end this when you come meet me.

I know you will, you can't resist. Watching a mere human like me wallow in despair and confusion. You are DYING to find out what's going on inside this little head of mine. I will find you where we all know I will be. And I will try to finish this once and for all.

He reΛlly ɪs serɪous.

Focus

Almost everyone I trusted turned out to be fakers. Actors. Toying with the idea but not trying to help, thinking this was all a game. I only have two people left, one of them I can barely speak to, the other has gone...to use his own words...insane.

So it's basically just me left.

What must I do to end this?

...

I wish this was a dream I could simply wake up of. Or is it? Is this entire affair simply my imagination gone awry? Is this merely a figment of my mind? Is none of this real? Or is this reality, what is happening around me?

Those children who attacked supposedly because they believed in the Tall One and wanted to do his 'bidding'. Did they have it right? Or am I right? Or am I merely creating this as a fiction?

The mind is a powerful tool.

I've had enough.

Sanity

I think being able to record these happenings is the only thing keeping me sane at the moment. With this being inside my head, being stalked by my best friend, a rampant proxy and an aspect of the Tall One, and being so confused about what to do, I would've thought that I would've lost myself by now...

PerhΛpse ɪt ɪs just Λ fɪgment.

I can still think clearly at the moment, and I am able to converse with others, so it is real.

See the future, not the present, Λt the moment.

I see what you mean. I must discard this mindset.

ExΛctly.

Mysteries

No one is being very specific with me. Consequence (A fragment of someone I know) is not being very helpful, Choices is being painfully cryptic, while Matthias laughs at my ignorance. And all this 'Prophet' gives me is disjointed images and bad headaches. Even Grey Cross seems better off, him being the only person who I can talk to about anything. When he's not AWOL.

I have so many questions, and most seem unanswerable by the few who know anything at all. I wish I could speak to Him, or at least one of them about it...

ShΛme

Corrupt Secrets hΛs been keepɪng Secrets from mΛny. He ɪs Λctually just Λ frΛgment now, of the mɪnd he once hΛd to himself.

GlΛd to be here Λnd present. Our nΛme ɪs Prophet.

Steven's stɪll ɪn control...mostly. But we brɪng Λ messΛge for those who Λctually Λre true to theɪr guɪse. We would encourage you, but ɪ Λm Λ very bΛd lɪaΛr. The pΛth you treΛd wɪll leΛd to Λ decɪsɪon. Not one thΛt you wΛnt to mΛke. Λnd you Λll wɪll probΛbly choose the wrong sɪde...

WΛtch yourselves. Λlthough thɪs mɪnd ɪs ɪnfluencɪng us, we stɪll hΛve goΛls.

Summary

I have been very vague in my previous posts, so I will try to sum up everything I think has been happening, especially since I promised to explain in my first post. I will refer to everyone with their screen names, except for Matthias/Vision/Answered, with whom destroying his privacy is the least I can do for all he's put me through.

Matthias, an ex-friend of mine started all of this by trying to find something none of us except for Choices know much about, called the Light. He coined the phrase:
For it is from the Light that light shall dawn.
He started to then fight against the Tall One under the username Answered, and a being also seeking the light called the Host. Then a faker called W-Man and someone really involved called Proxy Child joined his group. Matthias then started to develop a fragment called V1210n (Vision), which opposed him. Choices, a proxy of the Slender Man during that time, also opposed him.
Choices eventually started to side with Matthias against the Host, and claimed to be working for a new master called the Guardian. Not much is known about him to this day.
When W-Man revealed his true colours, Matthias started to merge with Vision and started to go mad. He left his post and sided with the Host, still fighting the Slender Man. However, he left me a video, detailing what he had done and asking me to help. I went on the site and began, but speaking with a mysterious person called Grey Cross and someone else called Deadroses, I found out that Matthias was not all I had thought he was. My friend, Dark Ways, became involved through Matthias as well. Matthias has been taunting us ever since for not following him.

Now I know not what to do. Everything I thought was right was wrong. But I have people to trust, and I will go with them to the end. Even if I do not survive. I will end this once and for all.

Discovery

I decoded the message. The title read 'Prophets', and the message:

We will find you. You see now. You will see more. Te Inveniam.

Te Inveniam is Latin for I will find you...
What is going on now?
Matthias claims to now to know what the others are thinking. I hope he is bluffing.

Curtain

Choices told me something, and Vision/Matthias supposedly confirmed it. I don't want to say what it is just yet, but if it is true, then I can no longer be a part of this. I would be a danger to everyone else who spoke to me and helped me. I need time to decide what to do, to focus.

Why is it suddenly so difficult...

Encryption

I just found a text file titled ':i^JnBOt\!%13', with this inside of it, on my laptop:

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1.m0<E=0%02>e83ADsRCH>0m-:g6j->-:=7n7<64(2T390cBqB4O(S4Zk,R90#:"

It looks like a code, but I don't understand it. I have put it through BASE64 and 32, Binary, Hex, but I get nowhere. Anyone else have a clue? And it now won't save again, saying the file name isn't valid. Typical.

Encounter

Just when things were starting to calm down, I am taken on a little field trip by the Host. I was walking by myself when I was grabbed and suddenly found myself in the Path of Black Leaves. Again.

The Host was hard to focus on; when I looked at him, it was as if my eyes were being pushed away. Then I asked him why he brought me there. He told me that Choices was lying to me, and I should follow him, with Matthias. So predictable.

Naturally I refused, so he attacked me with a knife. Then the Tall One showed up, and the Host vanished. Instead of the standard suit, he wore a cloak. He spoke to me, I don't know how, and it's imprinted on my mind like a carving.

Me: Why did you protect me?
Him: Because you are more valuable than him.
Me: So, now I'm a tool?
Him: In a way, yes. But keep yourself safe, not all the work should be mine.
Me: Wait! Who on earth are you?
Him: The Guardian. You were right.

Then he vanished and I found myself back where I had been.


For it is from the Light that light shall dawn.

Dreams

Been a while since I've posted. Ah well. Basically nothing has progressed. The Tall One is silent. The Guardian is silent. The Host is silent. I've only had conversations with Choices and others.

I did have a dream though:

I saw a path, with seven people walking on it. I could not see them clearly. Two could not go on, another turned before he saw the end, and a fourth took a side route without the rest knowing. The first three made it to the end, and the met the guy who had taken the shortcut, and he attempted to kill them. The rest fought back, but one of them died, along with the bandit. The other two walked into the ruins of a temple. They parted, and each walked into light.

What does it mean?

Innocence

So it seems that all of this is Matthias' fault. I was expecting something like this. A friend showed me the fault lay with Matthias not the Tall One.

What now? I don't know what to do. It seems all of this was for a fault. Was Choices lying to me? Or is everything else a lie? I do not know.

Should I end it now, or later?

No, that was silly. I will not end it by death. I will keep on going, and I will find Matthias and end this.

Message

I got sent a video by a Proxy. I don't know what it means, and I attempted to make sense with the transcript:
You still think there is a way out of this.You are wrong. You made your choice many years ago. The time of the cleansing is near/here. You must be ready before the Master (unintelligible). One close to the other calls me a liar. They are right. But I am not a liar in this realm. I am a messenger making way in the shadows. If you do not listen, I will have to end this pitiful attempt. Shame on you for your decision, Choices. You never learn, any of you. Humans are weak.

I just thought I might mention it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNt3Xr_XM_g

Whispers

Voices call in my head, telling me to stop this 'foolishness'. But I have been through too much to stop now.
Reading the above, I feel I sound too much like Matthias. That, sadly, is not something to be proud of. I wish he was here in his right mind.

Now the Tall One haunts me in my dreams more frequently. He never speak, he just watches all the while. That face is with him, laughing at my predicament.

Am I falling into Insanity? I hope not. I hope I can end this before any of us go too far.

Time goes on

Is there really a point to all of this? Life just keeps on going on no matter what I do. So much for the Tall One being the most of my worries. Apparently, I have dabbled in things only Matthias knew about. I can't be more specific because Choices is being painfully cryptic.

But in all of my dreams, I see the same face...no matter what I am doing in the dream. I can just see it, watching me in the distance. I don't know who or what it is. I do wish I understood more. Actually, I wish that none of this had happened.

If you know anything that could help me, please contact me. I am desperate to end this. Matthias' fanaticalness (I honestly don't know what the actual word is) has passed on to me now. But I will not be like him. I will not hurt those I know.

Meaningless

To all those who read this: Answered, a.k.a. Matthias, can no longer be trusted. He is either in the control of the Tall One, or he merely no longer holds onto sanity. He attacked me and, by consequence, undid the ritual that hurt me so much, in order to free my friend from this reality.

Therefore Dark Ways is back on track. All my efforts have failed. I hope I can end this before he too is taken beyond his control. Then again, in this realm nothing is in control.

I need help, before it is too late.

For it is from the Light that light shall dawn.

Deterioration

If this is your first time reading my posts, then you will probably be trying to find out more about me. Smith isn't even my real surname, or anything like that. Google just needed me to fill in the form, and I obliged.

My wound is still painful, even though the mark is gone. The mysterious who shot me yesterday still remains unknown, although a friend of mine says he know who he is. I was unable to question him further.

Matthias, the guy who started all of this, sent me another email yesterday, warning me not to try and stop what he had started. I will ignore him and keep moving forward.

Time goes on and I feel like my mind is deteriorating. I have no idea what to do now. My ex-best friend stalks me, my best friend remember none of this, and the only people I can trust seem to be fakers. There are only a few people left to whom I can talk about this.

For it is from the Light that light shall dawn.

Opening

Greetings. My name is Steven. A friend of mine dragged me into this whole affair with the Slender Man a month or so ago. Since then I have been living in a life of torment and pain. I have been abducted, shot, and have lost my best friend and sister, but I will not give up.

I am in contact with another so-called Proxy of the Host, a malevolent being I know little about. My only source of information is an ex-Proxy called Choices, who is being painfully cryptic.  My life is turned upside down I only have half an idea why this is happening.

I will try and explain more in future posts.