Time goes on

Is there really a point to all of this? Life just keeps on going on no matter what I do. So much for the Tall One being the most of my worries. Apparently, I have dabbled in things only Matthias knew about. I can't be more specific because Choices is being painfully cryptic.

But in all of my dreams, I see the same face...no matter what I am doing in the dream. I can just see it, watching me in the distance. I don't know who or what it is. I do wish I understood more. Actually, I wish that none of this had happened.

If you know anything that could help me, please contact me. I am desperate to end this. Matthias' fanaticalness (I honestly don't know what the actual word is) has passed on to me now. But I will not be like him. I will not hurt those I know.